Hello and Welcome!

I am, and always have been, a notoriously bad blogger. But I'm back to give it another try, one more time.

I seem to have rediscovered my "pep" in recent times, and I'm ready to try some new things, and get back into the things that matter to me... at this stage, this chiefly involves getting fit and losing weight (again!)

Tuesday, September 27, 2011


I'm cranky. For not a very good reason, but I'm cranky anyway. We are trying to organise a work trip, which is not coming together as quickly or as easily as I had hoped. It will still happen, but it might be 2 or 3 weeks away. I'm going to go CRAZY in this office before then. Damn it.

The rest of the world as I know it is actually going along pretty well. I've been smashing it out at the gym this week - RPM Monday morning, bit of cardio Monday night, a short run and some heavy weights Tuesday morning, Step Tuesday night, Pump Wednesday morning. My legs and arms are completely smashed now, and I'm not doing anything tonight, but it's nice to be feeling motivated exercise wise again. I was planning on a slightly longer run tomorrow morning, but the weather has turned to hell. I think we're having thunderstorms this afternoon. I'll have to see what it looks like tomorrow morning, I might be stuck on the dreadmill. I never last long on the dreadmill, so it might be another short run and something else to stretch out the time.

Eating is all good for the time being too. I'm actually under eating, which never ever ever happens to me. I'm not concerned about it, because I know it will turn around in a very short space of time and I'll be wanting to eat everything in sight again. That's when I'll have to be uber-vigilant again. Plus, if this work trip comes together, it will be good to have had some light eating days in there, because the calories do tend to get blown out of the water on these trips.

Nothing much else to report. I'm frustrated and dealing with it by hitting the gym instead of eating... that rocks. Still like to get past the frustration though.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

The weekend round up

Well I'm not sure where that weekend went, but it could come back if it likes. Thank goodness for a long weekend next weekend. I am NOT WORKING on the long weekend, I'm seriously ready for a bit of a break.

I'm not sure I actually have a lot to report from the weekend that was, although I felt busy. On Friday night I worked late-ish, then cruised home and had a quiet one in front of the TV. My gym had a "festival of fitness" thing happening on Saturday which I was halfway tempted to go along to, but in the end I decided not to. If it was just for members I would have gone, but they do it as an open day/bring a friend type thing, and the classes get too damn crowded. The idea, though, is to see how many classes you can do back to back before you collapse. They were running Pump-Attack-Combat-Step-Balance all in a row, with a couple of RPMs at the same time as Pump and Combat so you could change into there. I think I would have only made it through 2 classes anyway!

So, on Saturday I was slow to get out of bed, enjoying laying there with the sun shining through the window. Once I got moving I did all the exciting stuff like washing and cleaning the house, then went grocery shopping, and called in on the parents to help out with a couple of things. In the evening I went out with the girls and saw The Beginners in town. Not a bad flick, a bit heavy and depressing at times, but worth a view.

Sunday was the usual early start for the markets, then lots of gardening and lots of cooking. I've got this week's meals all sorted and a couple even in the freezer. One thing I have certainly learned of late is that if I am not organised and don't have a stock of food ready to go, I'll eat something easy and crappy, and then I'll go crazy on a pile of other junk. No excuses this week, I'm all sorted.

And now for the week ahead. I dragged my sorry butt out of bed and made it to the 6:05 RPM class this morning, so that's a good start. I really don't like RPM, but I'm sucking it up because I'm sure it's good for me. I certainly wouldn't be doing it every day, but I think I can deal with once a week. I struggle with "cycling pain"... not injury pain, just the general good using-the-muscles pain. It's quite different from running pain or aerobics type pain, and to me it is oh-so-much worse. I really want to increase my threshold on that, and better condition my legs for cycling. And dragging myself off to RPM is the best way of doing that I think. It does make me cranky on a Monday morning though.

I was going to steal from Jess and make a "5 things I want to achieve today" list, but I actually can't be bothered. That doesn't auger well, does it? I'll just put one thing... get focussed at work and push out some work. I've been living on the procrastination train the last few weeks, and crap is piling up.

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Long hiatus

I haven't updated here in a good while. I've been thinking about it, I just haven't got quite so far as doing it.

For once, my long absence does not mean a period of sloth and binge eating. Well there has probably been some of that in that time... but right now I'm in a pretty good place. I just don't want to jinx it.

One point of note, though, is that I am completely over running. All of a sudden I hate it. So I'm not going to do it for a while. I might still run a 5k a week to make sure I don't have to start completely from scratch when I'm over this little tantrum, but I'm not running 3 or 4 days a week. I don't want to and I'm not going to. So there. I have been suffering from some injuries of late, most notably from shin splints - and they only seem to bother me when running. I can do all manner of gym classes and I don't notice it, but hit the streets and I'm in agony. I think this is largely related to the stupid expensive running shoes I bought and hate. I'm going back to netball shoes, they just work for my feet. I haven't played netball in 15 years, but I like the shoes.

Having said that I'm over running, I did complete the City to Bay on Sunday. It's a 12km run and should be an easy one, given it's pretty much all flat or downhill. I struggled through it though (probably unaided by the fact I hadn't run AT ALL for 2 weeks prior. Yeah, good plan that). So I made it in 1:19:54, which is pretty damn slow, but a finish nonetheless. When I was skinny and uber-fit 3 years ago I did it in 1:01:45. I'd like to think that I'll give that a shake again next year - but for the time being, I'm focussing on doing stuff that I'm enjoying, which will hopefully help the trend of losing weight, which will help make running easier and faster. And so the cycle goes.

After a really rocky road these last few years, I finally feel like my head is in a good space. I'm enjoying the gym, I'm eating well, and dare I say it, I'm kind of happy. I don't know why the sudden change. To be honest my personal situation hasn't changed much at all. My dad still has Alzheimer's and is getting worse. I'm still working with businesses in administration and liquidation, which is really, really hard and stressful. My weight and fitness are still nowhere near where I want them to be. But I have finally come to the realisation that none of these factors defines me. They are issues that I have to deal with, and they shape my day-to-day life, but they don't define me as a person. I can find happiness whilst still being surrounded by shit. And that has to be a good thing.